So I just got home from work and I am having a good day. The sun is out and my children are visiting their grandmother for the weekend and I have nothing to do. I realize that the majority of my time is spent with my children. This is not a bad thing, its just that when they are gone I don't know what to do. Has it been that long since I have had some free time. Maybe and maybe not. I think that I just get so caught up in them that I don't think about myself as much anymore. I wonder if any other parents feel this way. Have you ever found yourself sitting around when your children are gone with nothing to do? What do you do? I have decided to use this time to focus on the small businesses that I am trying to start and the singing career I am trying to start. I almost feel that I have lost myself. Instead of focusing I am wondering what my children are doing. Obviously I am not used to being without them and I don't know what to do with myself. This is why I need to find some friends. We could have been hanging out having drinks or something. All this alone time has made me see myself. Why don't I have friends to hangout with or were are my friends? Who knows. Do I really care? Not really. Maybe I'll find some real friends one day. Females can be so wishy-washy and some males have other agendas. Sometimes you just can't win. Lots of hugs!!!
Love Sarah
